A network for people who identify as furries and live the lifestyle.

Nothing lasts forever...

Since entering the fandom a few years ago I have made both friends online and here IRL. And in that time I have seen much and learned a lot from them... But now I have to deal with changes some good... some not.... Right now I have to get used to my life as it is and all this recent humbling has helped me look at a few things differently.

Right now it appears what I thought would be permanent friendships (never changing) is falling apart and at the rate things have been going, I will be lucky to still have them by the end of this year. Since finding out about a few things regarding my health last month, I have seen a very rapid downhill slide in things. I wonder sometimes if I just should drop it all and start anew elsewhere.... But when I think of all the experiences, good and bad, the fun and not so, I decide to stay and hope it all works out. I hope to be finally with my kitten and tiger this summer, but even now I question that with all the things going on in my life.

My biggest worry is that all the friends here are drifting apart and that soon, as it used to be I will be alone again with only hopes and dreams to keep me going. Only thing keeping me going is my tiger, friends and family, and without them I would have already lost it.... Now these changes sneak around and beat me over the head and I do really have to wonder if there is any reason I should stay here where I life and not find greener pastures somewhere. I guess something is gonna have to give soon and I don't know when or where, but when it does..... we'll have to wait and see.

As for friends here and online that I might have pissed off, sorry bout that.... It's not intentional, it's not personal.... It's just me and who I am, just as you are who you are whether I agree with you or not.... I can't change you and trying to change me won't work either since I did that in my last relationship and it when downhill from there and I didn't see it till it was to late.

. I hope the same isn't happening with my friends here or online.... But if it does, I know I still have options, including moving if need be.... and right now Colorado , Oregon or Washington are starting to look like great places to want to move to, or it's because of the mountains and forests.... Who knows.... At least I have options.